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Monday, October 8th, 2007
8:37 pm	"castle" - i'm never safe i'll never know. falling out of a mountain, believe this will be the last day i am alive. "escape ruthless shape-shifter" - years spent living with alien disease, what once was human disgusted by what it sees. eyes spray blood onto mirrors, eyes see flashes of fears. second long images of flesh changing color. take punishment graciously. sit on what you think is a throne, wear what you think is a crown. make them see what you see, everyone's head on one body. "family of base heads" - the surgery invented isn't what they say it is. the virtual heaven will cost you your life. death will trigger your brain, forever will be a hallucination. mountains made of lifeless friends, climb to the tops to meet the surgeon. he will tell you to devour your heart, then show you how. "serpents take hold" - fuck you my child. dreams created this on accident. so go to sleep because today is tomorrow's baby sitter. "liquid vine" - this place exists. hole in the sky, new planet. exploding through shadows, sun-god: god of fear. i look at this planet fusing itself into mine. "skin become other skin" - look through me, not there anyways. hide behind my face. thoughts travel so far from earth. breathe this fire. find a new feeling. invisible i stand before you. "a dream about weed" - your love is without a doubt controlled by the fear that one day you will get what you deserve. "believe in circuit rival blood" - be sure to watch the instructions step by step. that insecure feeling, it can rot away who you once were. inhuman screaming at the hospital inhuman lungs breathing at the hospital. be sure to watch the tears tear more than flesh. there was no seed, feeling the way you feel makes the evil grow from within. "bro-he 69" - put pulp in the blender, flatten it out and let it dry, that is paper. "purple smokey mountain" - think about a person, imagine a person. everything that happens was planned to happen. i regret everything i ever knew. everything shown is plan. "scary moment" - some memories never happened. the first time they saw red they saw blood. the visuals i have will make me go insane. "cuts on both eyes" - look a body, bones wrapped in skin a present under a tree. dont show me the keys when im in the cage flaunt your freedom. "the doctor called me 'river minion'" - there's satellites they built on epcot. styrofoam is the skin, i'm really scared, i see that it's dark. blood turns to acid. "life's a feathered horse journey" - people were fucking each other at the laundry mat. one guy ran up to another guy and punched him so hard in the fucking face that his collar bone broke and his head snapped off. "gas robot, engage steel python" - today they will choose, they look at you but think about the species that took it back. they took back the bones but forgot the blood. the blood gave them thoughts. no one has marrow of their own, they replaced it with regret. no circulation, no need to better any situation. "untitled" - retrieve sequence of thoughts. peeling through layer after layer. a memory is found. sit back in horror as you watch your life. "murdered man seeks icy man" - i don't understand life or age or time, nothing i'm afraid of even exists. leeches in a place where i can't tell which is real, me, or the place, or the problem. "life exterminator" - i'm sick of looking at walls, they're filling up my eyes. my head just feels so bad, i'm fucking pissed off all the time. life fucked my senses, i kill people because i hate them at night. (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 5th, 2006
5:52 pm	dry the stinger, breathe smoggy breathe, fly to the sun and die with melting your face (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 1st, 2006
9:16 am	in the center of the galaxy away from earth and all its misery i feel like i'm wasting my life and its a wonderful feeling to feel. each day i wake up and im a different freak, its a wonderful feeling (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 25th, 2005
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Friday, September 30th, 2005
3:24 pm	i ate these things and the floor of a flock of seagulls practice space turned to hot lava (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 8th, 2005
11:04 pm	family of base heads pt.2 me and max bought the mother sack, and pretty much downed the whole thing. we went to the store because we needed blunts, because this was like a fiesta, and the dude who knows what brand blunt i like the best was like "you here for the white owl bro?" and i was like "gimme motherfuckin three them bitches" and he was like "three?!" and i was like "dude....give me three" he knew what time it was. the roads were wet and on the way back to max's house the bald tires on my car started sliding when i tried to turn onto his street, and we crashed into a giant croncret pillar, all my tapes flew all over the car but it wasnt bad, it gave the wagon a little ding but that shit just adds personality to the fucker. we smoked a blunt on max's moms bed while watching pink flamingos, she has roaches in there, like the animal. Current Mood: inner-glue Current Music: Assuck (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 5th, 2005
12:39 am	the imp its been a long time since we had anything to say towards anything, any one subject. i got a job at subway and then i quit cause the lady slapped my hand, i wanna sue her but im a drunk and the system never takes our side. we also went to orlando and made noise for jabba and that sounded good. when i went into subway to quit i was like "i dont wanna work here anymore" and she was like "so are you gonna give us a notice or are you just walkin out?" and i was like "like a two week notice?" and she thought i agreed to the two week notice and i was like "well no i cant come in another two weeks and i also cant come in tomorrow or like ever again." she said she was gonna give me a bad refereance to my future employer or something, she was always a nasty bitch. now i work at the bowling alley, i saw the drummer of me and max's band we had in middle school and he is an emo kid now, he has dumb hair and dumb clothes, but he was nice to me, he was like "so you and max still rock n roll?" and i was like "hell yeah we do" and he asked what kinda music and stuff and i said we break strings and then cry about how nothing good has ever happened in our lives, i think he thought i was joking. me and max have been high since we saw what weed talked like. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 12th, 2005
1:18 pm	the headless horseman trots into a pottery barn did you hear about these new middlesexers? they dont got a gynie or a weiney, they have a pinky finger Current Mood: emergency ironing board (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
1:07 pm	i know what you did last spring, neil, jesus saw we have been making a lot of noise with like amplifiers and stuff, and we're gonna call the shit that we make Energy Turtle. wavin' dildoids about, talking about how i spread it the thickest. drinkin' straight out the eight bottle, do i look like a motherfuckin' role model. since i was a youth i smoked weed out. Current Mood: i called her peanut Current Music: ladies is pimps too (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 29th, 2005
6:40 pm	you betta not waste my nana, man Current Mood: hungry (5 Comments |Comment on this)
5:51 pm	see ya later, steven we went to orlando, that was a lot of fun, we got to skateboard inside and uhh, drink lots of energy drinks, and smoke a couple of satchels of that. m.d.c. was cool, it felt good to jump up and down and over people's heads and uhh, like the way a bullfrog does. primate laser surgery practiced, it sounds really bad ass with drums, it's like extremely fast and slow. we've started to like seriously, realisticly, like in our hearts and souls to worship satan, and to like pray to him too, and like ask him for things Current Mood: narstoogen Current Music: man is the bastard - sum of the men: the brutality continues (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 28th, 2005
2:24 pm	kiss the goat! Current Mood: john quincy hickory paul bunyo (Comment on this)
2:18 pm	jellykank umunguh shunk on the bumby sliack um tack Current Mood: ecstatic (Comment on this)
2:02 pm	i think satan is the lord of the goat Current Mood: giddy (Comment on this)
Friday, April 22nd, 2005
11:00 am	¡Aquí puedes conocer a tu mejor amor y cambiar tu vida! crawdad Current Mood: mujer Current Music: ¡im gonna get hoes, im gonna smoke weed! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
4:05 pm	live by the lillypad, die by the lillypad (Comment on this)
11:06 am	poster board power violence The Catholic frog (Notaden bennetti) is a yellow or greenish Australian myobatrachid which gets to be about 4 cm (1.5 inches) long. It was named for the dark, crosslike pattern on its back, and it lives in dry regions. The way it copes with drought is to live underground, emerging from its burrow after a heavy rain. Current Mood: septum babies (Comment on this)
11:05 am	no frog reasons frog! Two new species of trypanosomas parasites in Mexican frogs (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
11:14 am	SOLO SOY UNA CHICA QUE QUIERE SABER CUAL ES MI MISION EN EL MUNDO y si tengo una cual es Current Mood: busy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 17th, 2005
2:51 pm	you deserve what you get, fuckin' hate you a lot of stuff probably happened this weekend, but i can't tell you about it cause i can't remember even what it looked like Current Mood: GET OVERR HEERRRE!!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)